austin-tatious wrote:I can take reasonable precautions (and do) for all three of those...run over by a car, struck by lightening, and the rattlesnake...to lower the odds that it will ever happen to me. Not guarantee, but lower the odds. That's why we're discussing/disputing/sharing (not to mention grieving about it) here...so we can all lower the odds of a fatal encounter with LE in a case like this one. That's why we spend so much time (some of us anyway
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) here and elsewhere. So I will be better prepared for such a scenario and continue to carry responsibly everywhere I am allowed.
Thank you for ably articulating my concerns. When my girls were growing up, I never allowed them to go to the State Fair at night with their friends. In my mind that was a reasonable precaution given what was occurring at the time. They still gripe about it, but both are alive and neither has ever been assaulted. I think I made the right decision based on my knowledge of the location and the crimes that were being committed at the fair at that time.
I have a lifelong habit of looking for escape routes in traffic, and I've been known to swerve to the shoulder when traffic stopped ahead of me, not because I was driving too fast but because I wanted to give the vehicle behind me more room to stop. A couple of years ago I avoided what could have been an extremely serious collision by doing that. (The truck hit three other vehicles, but not mine.) I don't go outside when lightning is active or when the conditions are right. And I would never hike in an area where rattlesnakes might be without an experienced guide and a walking stick to keep the rattlesnake at bay (and now a gun as well.)
But I've never carried a loaded weapon in my life - not even when I was in the Navy - and sorting through how to deal with situations that involve a loaded weapon isn't something I've given any thought to - until now. I'll confess, although I talked a good game (carrying a gun is serious business, guns are always loaded, never point a weapon at anything you don't intend to shoot, yada, yada, yada), I didn't realize how serious (although I thought I did) until Erik was killed. Now my awareness is extremely elevated, and I am actively seeking any information to build a workable avoidance strategy that will reduce my risk of being shot by responding officers. Part of my concern is because of the well documented "blackout" period during high stress situations. If I haven't planned and trained for the worst, I will not be ready, and the risk of serious injury or death is heightened.
One thing this has done is cause me to decide that my decision to carry is for my personal safety and the safety of my family, not a civic duty or an opportunity for me to help others. I am much less likely to get involved in someone else's problem to the point of using my gun unless I am absolutely certain that I have no other choice. I'll be a good witness, but if you're looking for a bodyguard, you should have carried yourself. It may be crass to say it, but if I have to decide between your life and mine, that decision was made a long, long time ago. I will not risk my life for you unless the odds are highly in my favor.
This is a dramatically different approach to carrying than the one I adopted early on when I first made the decision to get my CHL. And it's a direct result of Erik's death.